So Easy

Had to hold it back
to stop and disengage from the possibility
of getting lost in you
tied up in you
releasing self to you
freeing self to you

Had to back it up
reel it in and
place the cover on
with a genuine smile and
light humor

This pulsating want so damned
distracting and disturbing
rendering clear thought impossible
forcing manipulation into
initial innocent intent

What do your arms feel like
how I long to be wrapped in between, endlessly

Twisted and turned,
disappointingly discarding
this rare opportunity
and distant moment of freedom
inevitably overrun by obligations clarity

Embarrassment replaced want
because it shouldn't be this way
it shouldn't be so open, so easy
so clear
But it is and I am