The Mistake

With a wink
I knew it was on
I spotted your intent
understood the silent
meeting of the minds

You nodded, averted eyes
I followed looking at secret space
isolated and dark
away
oblivion unto itself
a place where we could
talk,discover, plot or scope

We planned and made arrangements
to meet again
to be together
for the first time
for the last time

As I arrived mind raced
what would this make me
what had I become
why had lust overtaken me

How could I overcome
the after silence
the aftershock
the unwanted guilt
the infinitely torn spirit

I don't know how long
you waited
because I quickly departed
made my exit
saved my peace of mine
reclaimed my sanity