Finally Living

It was so hard
then
difficult
impossible to breathe
to smile
to laugh
to relax
to enjoy
to live

Nightmares flooding my mind
panic crowding my thoughts
no exercise in fatih
no understanding of peace

My young life
seemed so painful
somewhat hopeless
then

It is easier
now
simpler now
savoring each moment
stretching each minute
thinking back without regret
longing without shame
loving without harm
reminscing without scars
dreaming without doubt
pursuing without fear
hungry for the future
living
living
I'm finally living

It is so much easier
now