Ole Me

Felt alluring
sexy
mischievous and
adventurous
enjoying flirting
light hearted teasing
seeing your response and
your intense reaction

but then
I spotted my reflection
and my facade
came tumbling down
instead of the
temptress
the femme fatale
I wanted to be
I spotted
plain ole brown me
just me

the energy drained out of me
the confidence seeped away
my insecurities weighed
like a brick
around my throat
I became
embarrassed, humiliated
I fell quiet
while you watched me, confused

But what had I been thinking
how had I fooled myself
how had I forgotten the basic truth
who would want
the plain brown ordinary
ole me