My Poison

Clinging desperately to the
obvious flaws
the blatant fouls
the ridiculous mistakes

Hanging on each blunder
as if they provide oxygen
as if their discovery gives enlightenment
nourishment
fulfillment

But I can't hold on
can't hang on
feeling like I am breathing
toxic air
invading the deepest chamber of me
poisoning my well
from which I must drink
killing my desire,
tearing at my spirit
slowing my drive

With each incident, you point
and repeat
but your words land on my ears
invade my mind
stick to me like
undiluted glue
attracting more negativity, more pessimissm
more doubt

Somehow you
are becoming
my poision