Easy Scapegoat

Heartbroken
again
the familial bonds tearing at my soul
ripping me to shreds
causing more destruction than
any lover
ever has
ever could

Desperate
again
longing for demonstrated love
calm and steady acceptance
resolution of all this pain
unconditional and
nonjudgmental

Distraught
again
finding myself apologizing for
manipulated pity imposed on me
childish guilt riddling my center
tingling my soul
again
again

Disappointed
again
another wish for family ties
gone up in smoke
another explanation
painting me bad
the easy scapegoat