What You Get

Despite the arguing
followed by never ending silence
the intense pain
followed by grueling neglect

Despite the illogical conclusions
and presumed actions of guilt
ridiculous insinuations and
simple miscalculations

I adored you

You had me
completely
although you will never really
know what that means

Not now.
Not when the most intimate of me
is tucked away, hidden
searching for fulfillment
in future love
And you receive
what remains
what survived the tragedy
what continued to exist
after the departing
the devastation
the intense heartbreak

What you get now
is merely a shell
of what you had...