For the First Time

For the first time
in a long time
I sat back and observed
without speaking, judging, inputing
Actually analyzed my surroundings
compared wordly chaos to
peaceful home

For the first time
in a long time
I remember the honor
in purity; in oneness
in uniting only with the
preordained soul mate
designed just for me

For the first time
in a long time
I realized how blessed I have been
by supernatural interference
destroying attempted deception and
reuniting destructive separation

For the first time
in a long time
I really thought about
your decisions and sacrifices
considerations and thoughtfulness
Truly
Soul remembrances of kind spirit
and for real love
uniquely doled out and
stored in the reservoir
just for me

For the first time
in a long time
I thanked God
for you.

Answered Prayer

I got on bended knee
prayed for a sign, clear answer
a direction
seeking clarity to
maternal dilemma
protect my seed from
family exposure

Within hours
you sent her
the third generation
physical embodiment of
emotional confusion
despair and depression
another psychotic daughter
of a torn dysfunctional unit...

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