Remain Quiet

Remain Quiet
afraid to say
i love you
afraid it might be
too little, too late
I have doubted it
every time it passed your lips
frowned my face wondering how
wondering why
why would you
or anyone else
love me

But I am ready
ready to believe me loveable
ready to believe me worthy
ready to try to bestow upon you
an emotion
I barely have for me

can I love you
if I don't know how to love me?
I want to try
I want to say it
I want to utter those three words
that seems so easy
but feel like stones passing through
myvocal chords
I love you but, dammit, I just can't say it
i can't force it

maybe one day you will realize but,
then again,
maybe you won't
either way
I just remain quiet.

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