need

i need you
in the most
unrecognizable way
you reflect me
insatiable and reaching
longing and striving
realizing want bears no wrong
acceptance reflect reality
truth
you mesmerize me
capture me
stun me with
articulate clarity
i need you
like the match to my spirit
your voice warms my heart
your thoughts fill my soul
i need you

Remind Me

remind me
of love
bring it back to me
like a clear picture
a static free recording
let me touch it
taste it
savor its wonder
swirl in its pureness

remind me of love
give it to me
freely
unconditionally
a cherished gift
a magnificent prize

remind me of its sound
light and free
deep and guttural
absorbed and overwhelmed

i lost it
or it escaped me
but you bring it back
you make my body recall
my brain reconfigure
my life make sense
you bring it back to me
stay with me
please
remind me

Damn Me

how does one
purge the mind
spit out the mistake
regurgitate the garbage
douche away the disgusting residue

why is there no
clear cut way
of mental flushing
no membrane dialysis
no spiritual antiseptic
or memory diuretic

if i could i would
throw you up
shit you out
pass you throw
gurgle you up and
spit you away

if i could i would
scrub away
any layer you touched
any space that took in your sight
any membrane that absorbed your sound
or fell victim to your lying touch

I would discard every aspect of me
that was contaminated by you
surely the cleaner pieces are worth more
than the sum total of me, contaminated by you
but I can't figure out how
to cleanse me
to disinfect me
to decontaminate me
without
destroying me

I can't figure out how
to save me,
but damn me
for exposing my all
to you

Never Lost Me

i lost sight of you
somehow
through the haze
the incredible need
the wanting bigger, better
searching
for grass that was green
taste more fantastic
touch more sensual
thirst more flagrant
longing more erotic

i lost you
lost sight of you
my head turned and
you easily faded
lost in my peripheral
lingered too long
in my damned blind spot
lounged to lazily
in our cursed comfort zone

i lost you
i reached out
stretched
inhaled deeply
letting waves overtake me
ripples run through me
currents lap around me
searching
until i drowned
overwhelmed
weight tying me down
guilt splashing my mind
flapping my spirit
testing your
impenetrable calm
and without blinking
you pulled me back
brought my head above water

you saved me

i lost sight of you
but your eyes
never left me