Daddy Gap

This inner hole
I can't seem to fill it
cover it up or
block it
without the pain bubbling through
gurgling up
fizzing out every open pore
to my soul

You were worse
than absent
you were distant
cold
judgemental and
unbending
unblinking
your eyes searched my face
my body
listed out every flaw, systematically
Noting what I inherited
from them
pointing out every mistake
your mingled blood
created

I am you
yet you see no beauty in me
I am your daughter
yet I was worth nothing to you
I try to forget it
brush it off and wave it away
but the truth is
my self worth was
brushed away
piece by piece
demolished
particle by particle
during every forced encounter
with you