Melt

Enflamed
your eyes contain
the heat of the sun
singularly focused
determined
to burn through my shell
see past my cover
expose the raw of inner me
that longs so desperately
for you

you make me melt

melt
I can't help it
can't deny it
you stand before me and I
try to ignore you
try to pretend I can't
feel your passion
don't understand sexual hunger
frontin' like I am not
tuned in and
turned out by
the simple promise
of what we
can accomplish
can have
can feel

I have already felt
the heat of you
lingered near
savoring the wonderful warmth
of you
but your eyes
radiate a lustful sizzle
an unquenchable, insatiable need
matched only by my
secret desire
and you linger on my mind
for days at a time
wondering if I can ever let you
touch me and
make me melt

Explore

Are you willing to
explore with me
quiet down reason and
logical explanation
and discover with me

I am able
wanting to try
longing to risk
desiring to step on the border
teeter totter on the brink
for the mere opportunity
the thrill
the illogical rush that
invades my brain
overtakes my being
reaching and longing
for a unique fulfillment
the missing peice
to this puzzle
for adventure of you

are you willing
to explore with me?

The Moon Kissed Me

The moon kissed me
and told me to
go to sleep
The moon kissed me
and the sky wrapped around me
comforting, hugging
as my name whispered over and over again
stretched across the vast canvas
riding on the tail
of a shooting star

But the moon kissed me
the lunar eclipse of my soul
smothered darkness in that second
in that moment
a brilliant explosion of
pure magnificence
surged from within
as I felt him
arms wrapped around my torso
legs intertwined from behind
held, during this elliptical ride
during this celestial spree
when he kissed me

Gain Back Me

I think we should
take a break
No, really
I am serious

I think I have had enough and
you don't seem to understand
we are missing each other
screaming and shouting
but no communicating
two straight arrows
floating parallel
intersecting with nothing
only piercing thin air

Aren't your tired?
cuz my soul is aching
I need some space
I want to learn how to
breathe again
laugh again
think about absolutely nothing
again

Instead of being consumed by
this pain.
Yes. You cause me pain
You can shout at me
it changes nothing
I will take the blame
I will be the bitch, if that's how you
have to put it
I'll be that
I'll be whatever I have to be
to buy back peace
to gain back me...

Memory Pocket

All these years
and you still remember
I find it incredible
unthinkable
the unmentionable
still lingers on your tongue
with a light smile and
bright eyes
the deeper meaning
still clear
still there

After all these years
and you still remember
although life has
changed us
molded and manipulated us
between all your relationships
and new love
within your new life
you left a space in your heart
for me
a pocket in your mind
to fold in our memory

Adorable
loving
after all these years
we can pick up
right where we
left off
never missing a beat
as we
reseal this phenomenal
connection
and turn past memory
into present reality

Want You To...

want you to see me
pretty
lovely
breathtaking when you
grasp me
breath me
inhale me and
sigh so deeply

want you to find me
sexy
wanting
holding me so carefully
caressing skin
combining desire
whispered name
repeated again and again
stirred emotion
mounting and rising
excited by the
simple nearness and
anticipation of
exploration anew

want you to taste me
delicious
exquisite
unique and forbidden
but unable to remove
to refrain
must absorb entirely
and submerge completely
knowing the
pure passion will be
returned, revisited
poured smoothly upon you
like loves thick honey

want you to know me
intimately
personally
dipping past exterior
sipping on the deep depths
soulful marination
mental musing and
physical manifestations
of love in every form
I conceive and serve
to you

want you to love me

Worth It

Is this breath worth breathing
if you aren't here
aren't by my side
to witness my intake
follow my exhale
know that with every breath I take
you are on my mind

Is this moment worth sharing
if you aren't here
and can't be found to
enjoy it, admire it
marvel in its pure impossibility
its true miraculous nature
knowing that I can only enjoy it
because you are here

Is this life worth living
if you aren't here
have given up and bailed out
succumbed to frustration and
given away to disappointment
how can I bare the
reflection of failure contained in your eyes
and know, inherently, that love has left
your heart, your mind, your spirit
making life a procedural protocol
of dry steps, forced to drag through
each day

Is this love worth giving
if you aren't here
and won't receive it
won't willingly submerge yourself or
lose yourself in the
mystical nature of it
won't you accept the offering
in its bounty and beauty
nor wrap your body in the comfort of its
silken cloak, luxuriously woven
to comfort and support you

Tell me,
Is it still worth it?

A Million Times

Yes. In my mind
I've kissed you
a million times
a million ways
holding your face
lightly between my hands
gingerly lavishing you
in the pureness of
sincere longing
I've done it
in my mind

Of course. In my mind
I've held you
a million times
a million ways
caressing away
concerns and fears
refitting and reforming me
into the
confidant and lover
you need me to be
I've done it
in my mind

Certainly. In my mind
I've made love to you
a million times
a million ways
allowing my heart to absorb
your pure energy
your fantastic power
swelling and exploding
the sensual essence into
a million fragments
a million beams
washing over us
sprinkling and tickling us
shining us golden
leaving us pure
making love again
a million times
a million ways

Believe in Love

Do you believe in love
in it's raw purity
it's perfect essence
so sincere
so true
available only to those
who close their eyes
and allow their soul to search
for the perfect goodness
within self
within another

Do you believe?

Is it possible
to find real love?
unconditional and patient
understanding and limitless
acceptance wrapped in
peaceful unity

Do you believe?

I have experienced it
felt it
the pure power of love
a surge of energy
so unique and luminescent
that my soul traversed
desert lands
on waves of waterfalls
crossed artic circles blanketed in
warm and humid clouds
withstood volcanic eruption
in the midst of a cool diamond case

There is love
if only for a brief second
each click of the clock
another eternity
another chance
to experience a glimpse of
divine wonder

No matter what
please please try
to believe in love...

No Comparison

He dismisses
while you study and watch
focus in from afar and
notice my secret emotion
observe bubbling well overflowing
longing to lap up the sweet water
knowing only you can
keep my well from running dry

He ignores
while you tap in
creating conversation
light and easy but
deep and thick
underlying want and tension
raising the small hairs on the
nape of my neck
your intention
laid out and clearly spelled
your eyes promising joys unmentionable
and adventures unforetold

He takes for granted
while you raise up high
glorifying and praising clear
womanhood
identifying lushful bloom and
buzzing near like
bee sipping nectar
storing and protecting
fiercely and selfishly
guarding natures sweetest honey

He wallows in self pity
while you find future in
the curve of my hip
the swell of my breasts
the sway of my lower back
the ridge of my inner thigh
present, no time for
lost hopes or dreams
you achieved and attained it all
leaving blame at the door
funneling time and energy and
desire for
manifestation
into a clearly and highly wanted
perfect solution

I Can Show You

Are you sure you want to learn?
positive you are ready to be taught?

Mine is a different type of love
a sweeter form of intimacy
searching the crevices of your spirit and
examining every inch of your being
listening to each muscle moan and
learning every reflexive response

We can take our time
listen to the rhythm of each heart
can you feel how mine races
just because your eyes have rested on me
have taken the time to really see me
reflect back a beauty
that I have never actually attained
mirror a genuine admiration
at which I sigh and shake my head
causing me to want to love you
to give you the best that I have
the most intimate me that I can offer

Or we can lose ourselves in the passion
let go and allow the thunder to roll
the sound to fill every orifice and
create its own vibe, its own stimulation
cause a tantric river to run
within us, flow throughout us
rising with each gentle lap against
this love's private banks and
fall with the smooth tide slowly retreating
by the natural pull of the moon

Magnetic
I can show you
teach you how to
tap into the atmosphere
the earthly natural wonder
that is created in you
expand your sensual mind
pique your every sense
until we both fade away
into brilliance's magnifiscence
holding holds and
deeply intertwined
a unique solo breath
a rare encounter

but I can show you
If you are ready to be taught...

The Call

I made the call
today
couldn't help it
couldn't hide from it
tried to run within myself
reign in the curiosity and
disguise the blatant intrigue
I couldn't
shouldn't
musn't
but certainly did

I made the call
heard the smile, again
heard the pause, the relaxed breathe
the instant connection
acknowledgment
importance, remembrance
inquisitive about
where I be and
what I do
why I am and
how long I will
hinting at situation complication but
willingness to forge forward
press through
burrow under and
hide within

carving out specialness
a hidden concave of
pleasure and safety
for just me
protection of the purity
uniqueness oneness
of it all

I made the call
today
and I'm glad I did

I Want You

I want you
want to be with you
want to learn you
discover you
test and try you

There are places we could go
discover
explore
without ever leaving this space

There are experiences
destinations
adventures of which we can partake
without leaving this arena

Just me and you

I can lead you there
if you release your mind
and willingly follow
I can teach you
if you trust me and believe in
the magic of us

I want to make love to you
give you a glimpse of
the wonder created
by a spark of genuine love
colliding with the intense need
to intertwine with you
to press fit my body into
your masculine template and
slowly ride the natural rhythm
the unique melody created by
the hum of us

I want to make love to you
if you'll let me

Would It Be Wrong?

Would it be wrong
to think on you?
Really?
to think about you
in the middle of my day
wondering whether I could
penetrate your armor
and bring to you
my smile

Would it be wrong
to want you?
Really?
To imagine caressing you gently
teaching true intimacy
enclosed space with minimal motion
holding and breathing
watching and learning
understanding the width and
indulging in your length

Would it be wrong
to experience you?
Really?
Letting go and seeking peace
in the wondrous annuls of your mind
the glorious channels
of your soul
the unique entry to your heart
through the passionate open
of oral response

Would it be wrong
to love you?
Really?
To look past flaw and
perceived idea
accepting the reality and
trueness that represents
effort and struggle
belief in the divine unity
of man and woman
of me and you
allowing it to guide
supersede and lead to eternity

Would it be wrong?
How could it be?

Need Space

You have to leave some space
some air
a little room to breathe

Its impossible to deeply inhale
enjoy the fresh brisk breeze
sway with the delightful wind
when you come around

Like a vacuum
you seem to draw in
every imaginable particle
even light fades
sucked into your magnificent being
causing you to glow
brighter and
shine iridescent
while the entire world
becomes your mere backdrop

So, you gotto move
leave
go away and
allow sound to return to me
light to sprinkle its rays across me
wiggle fingers and shake hips
breaking through the
immobile cast
statue, figurine that I become
whenever you are around

I can't control me
near you
don't live life
so wrapped into you
everything else falls grey
in comparison
its not your fault, I know, but
there is no other solution

please, please go
so that
I can breathe again

Unique Memory

Your name escaped my
sealed inner vault
sliding past barely parted lips
as the memories unfolded
clear against my closed eyes

Your touch found
every imaginable zone
every single point
pressing until I was raw
exhausted but overstimulated
tingling
a light breeze over the
super sensitive
causing waves of passion to
rain down over me
cling to my skin like cool morning dew
staining my person
leaving your indelible mark
invisible radiation
glowing through

Then you stopped
watched my eruption
mumbling words of love, lust
promotion and encouragement
releasing flood gates and
tearing down impenetrable dams

I want you, again
need to physically reminisce on
every single detail
highlight the most expressive and
reenact the most intimate
take you up on your promises
indulge myself in your pampered expertise
allow you a permanent marking
in my mind

The Loyal

There is something different
some part of me that
you knew existed, but ignored
until I gave it voice and
handed over access and pass

You accepted entry
hesitantly confirming the me
you suspected all along
stumbling around me, now
casual, but forced awkward

I can feel it a
tense static a
hesitant air, you won't discuss it
won't entertain it
won't acknowledge it and
vibe with me, like its just not there

But I know, now
for the first time
I finally figured it out
and you know that I know
but there is nothing either of us
would ever dare do
or say

How long have you loved me?

When did it happen
a forever simmering connection
or a sudden onslaught of
unconfrontable emotion
When did they all have to
measure up to me
never quite matching your mental perception
which filters out all my flows and
creates for any woman
an unattainable standard

When did you decide that
a lifetime of this was
better than
nothing at all
relinquishing pursuit of them
always right by my side
loyal to a fault
pure adoration in your every delicate handling
of me

How long have I dismissed it, confused it
clouded in a mask of friendship
sharing stories of love and lust
causing you unbearable pain
hidden in your determination to
be my foundation

The realization came with validation
clarifying one other certainty

I love you too

Your Kiss

If you send it to me
I promise I will blow it back at you

move over, lean up and seal it
with another
clinging lightly
enjoying this, so slowly
eyes open, watching you
get lost in this
enjoying this
registering surprise that I
came to you
stood on tiptoes
leaned gently over and
reeled you in
inhaled you
tasting slightly
pressing longingly
exploring this cavern, causing
underground rivers to rise
and unseen fountains to splash

gently spraying me
tickling, teasing, you are
holding on tightly
so tight I better
release
come up for air
clear out this fog, remove thick haze
dismiss the drowning feeling of liquid life
poured onto me
by your kiss

Copyright 2007 Discover Kai
Originally Posted at Myspace

Stay Quiet

Please, don't talk
I think it's best since
your tongue has me confused.
I think the less I know
the better this feels
the more of you
I want, and
the more of me
you can certainly have

With no conversation and minimal interaction
I have already determined that
I am going to make love to you.

Period.

It really is that simple
This internal draught seeks to be quenched
only by you
Those eyes have me longing for more,
your solid frame calls to me,
my mental begging to caress such smooth skin and
lie underneath that light smile
creating realms of possibilities, miles of opportunities
all of which I want to experience,
feel, know, touch, taste
record in the depths of my heart

But, when you talk I feel deflated
disappointed, sometimes disgusted
your lack of ambition is unattractive and
your inability to move forward is so unsettling
the internal ache quietly soothes itself
no longer wanting to feel your cure
my whispered need completely drowned out
by the loud warning bell in my head

So, don't talk and
I won't listen
Instead I will focus on the heat of you
in your quiet I can hear the only beat I am seeking
the only sounds I am yearning
stretching you past preconceived limits
allowing my unlimited exploration
until you take over
and guide me into your oblivion

So, just stay here, in this space
and please stay quiet.

Hate

You hate me.

Now I know it,
eventually I will revel in it and
at every opportunity, laugh at it

But right now, I am sad about it
facing clear understanding that
pure hate can never be formed
from love
can never exist within love
certainly cannot hide behind love
leading me to one clear truth

You never loved me at all.