Gain Back Me

I think we should
take a break
No, really
I am serious

I think I have had enough and
you don't seem to understand
we are missing each other
screaming and shouting
but no communicating
two straight arrows
floating parallel
intersecting with nothing
only piercing thin air

Aren't your tired?
cuz my soul is aching
I need some space
I want to learn how to
breathe again
laugh again
think about absolutely nothing
again

Instead of being consumed by
this pain.
Yes. You cause me pain
You can shout at me
it changes nothing
I will take the blame
I will be the bitch, if that's how you
have to put it
I'll be that
I'll be whatever I have to be
to buy back peace
to gain back me...

The Request

In one night
I opened my soul
revealed my heart and
displayed the internal confusion
new woman lust and awareness had
developed into new considerations, but
two years two late
for you

It was the first time
you were allowed a glimpse or
a slight taste of the
deep river flowing beneath my
innermost caves
normally still but suddenly rushing
slamming against shores
splashing onto banks of my mind...

**The remainder of this poem, and all other poems for October, are available in Discover Kai Poetry Intimate Musings, or contact a.Kai at discoverkai@hotmail.com for copies or permission to use. If you don't receive a response to email within 2 days, please resend. Thanks**