You ignite my flow
stimulating imagination
dreams, fantasies and ideas that
I have no courage to
actually enact
You know it
that's why you
tease, flirt and smile
engage, avoid, interact
then withdraw
just enough to
keep my interests piqued
just enough to
be clearly unavailable....
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Tuesday, October 31, 2006
She Apologized
She apologized
and it confused me
kinda made me sad
guilty feeling, because
she was the only one that
ever tried to do right by me
Took time to
observe my uncomfortable fit
she tried to
usher in some cool
some game, at least a little
didn't want her niece
suffering more
isolation and separation.......
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and it confused me
kinda made me sad
guilty feeling, because
she was the only one that
ever tried to do right by me
Took time to
observe my uncomfortable fit
she tried to
usher in some cool
some game, at least a little
didn't want her niece
suffering more
isolation and separation.......
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Sunday, October 29, 2006
Phone Number
I don't call folks
that I don't know
It's the simple rule
you got to know someone
who knows someone
who knows me
But, you were too fine to deny
to your face
so I accepted number figurin
scrap would just eventually float away,
disappear
just like the memory of you
You placed number in my palm
and held on
applying pressure, so gently
but firm, firm enough
while eyes remained focused
trailing a blaze, smoldering heat
under your touch.........
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that I don't know
It's the simple rule
you got to know someone
who knows someone
who knows me
But, you were too fine to deny
to your face
so I accepted number figurin
scrap would just eventually float away,
disappear
just like the memory of you
You placed number in my palm
and held on
applying pressure, so gently
but firm, firm enough
while eyes remained focused
trailing a blaze, smoldering heat
under your touch.........
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Saturday, October 28, 2006
Don't Say A Word
Smoke filtered through and
alcohol induced laughter carried into the night
Indignant shouts, righteous planning and plotting
They were confronting their men and
taking me with them
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alcohol induced laughter carried into the night
Indignant shouts, righteous planning and plotting
They were confronting their men and
taking me with them
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Willingly Aqcuiese
If I ask
will you tell?
Are you bold, brave enough
to lay it all out
I want a clear analysis
No. Not a brief overview
If you had me,
what would you do?
It's out there
I'm interested, thinking and weighing
scoping out the idea
Is it plausible? Possible?
Worth it?
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will you tell?
Are you bold, brave enough
to lay it all out
I want a clear analysis
No. Not a brief overview
If you had me,
what would you do?
It's out there
I'm interested, thinking and weighing
scoping out the idea
Is it plausible? Possible?
Worth it?
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Friday, October 27, 2006
Love's Misunderstanding
I used to believe that love
meant total and complete possession
Belonging to me and only me
Every offense was a threat
to my inner woman
undermining any and everything
that we were
Therefore, I had to
hold on tight
grasp firmly
claw and fight
to remain suctioned to love
I was wrong.....
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meant total and complete possession
Belonging to me and only me
Every offense was a threat
to my inner woman
undermining any and everything
that we were
Therefore, I had to
hold on tight
grasp firmly
claw and fight
to remain suctioned to love
I was wrong.....
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Emotional Indifference
It took a while to realize
open eyes and admit
I don't know you at all,
not really
Romancing the physical,
laying hands on person,
rubbing lips and
intertwining limbs
merging breath and wind
to unison plateau
don't mean nothin
not really
when I don't really know you.....
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open eyes and admit
I don't know you at all,
not really
Romancing the physical,
laying hands on person,
rubbing lips and
intertwining limbs
merging breath and wind
to unison plateau
don't mean nothin
not really
when I don't really know you.....
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Thursday, October 26, 2006
May I?
Your love is a deep well
May I drink from your depths?
cherishing every precious drop
this hallowed bank of golden spirit
your essence, streamed and plentiful
Your love is a meadow
May I sit on your grassy mounds?
peaceful and content
as your breathe blows trees
swirling around me
sprinkling orange and red leaves
all over, uncovered, free.....
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May I drink from your depths?
cherishing every precious drop
this hallowed bank of golden spirit
your essence, streamed and plentiful
Your love is a meadow
May I sit on your grassy mounds?
peaceful and content
as your breathe blows trees
swirling around me
sprinkling orange and red leaves
all over, uncovered, free.....
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Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Come Back
I woke up in love with black men
not just one in particular, but
the collective, whole
the idea of strength and creativity
fortitude and
the belief in
pure relationship with loving women
protecting family with
fierce honor and pride
A feeling like highschool
watching boyfriends athletic feats
feeling goosebumps at the power
before DL rumors and jail statistics
HIV and condom ignorance
or refusal
misogynistic music pregnant with
self hate and death' destruction.........
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not just one in particular, but
the collective, whole
the idea of strength and creativity
fortitude and
the belief in
pure relationship with loving women
protecting family with
fierce honor and pride
A feeling like highschool
watching boyfriends athletic feats
feeling goosebumps at the power
before DL rumors and jail statistics
HIV and condom ignorance
or refusal
misogynistic music pregnant with
self hate and death' destruction.........
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Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Cry For Me
One day
Ima take the time to
cry for me
A good hearty boohoo
well deserved and
damn straight justified
allow the little girl in me to
unravel and uncoil
crack shell around hidden emotion
and release pain like air
seeping from balloon...
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Ima take the time to
cry for me
A good hearty boohoo
well deserved and
damn straight justified
allow the little girl in me to
unravel and uncoil
crack shell around hidden emotion
and release pain like air
seeping from balloon...
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Monday, October 23, 2006
The Request
In one night
I opened my soul
revealed my heart and
displayed the internal confusion
new woman lust and awareness had
developed into new considerations, but
two years two late
for you
It was the first time
you were allowed a glimpse or
a slight taste of the
deep river flowing beneath my
innermost caves
normally still but suddenly rushing
slamming against shores
splashing onto banks of my mind...
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I opened my soul
revealed my heart and
displayed the internal confusion
new woman lust and awareness had
developed into new considerations, but
two years two late
for you
It was the first time
you were allowed a glimpse or
a slight taste of the
deep river flowing beneath my
innermost caves
normally still but suddenly rushing
slamming against shores
splashing onto banks of my mind...
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Sunday, October 22, 2006
Answered Prayer
I got on bended knee
prayed for a sign, clear answer
a direction
seeking clarity to
maternal dilemma
protect my seed from
family exposure
Within hours
you sent her
the third generation
physical embodiment of
emotional confusion
despair and depression
another psychotic daughter
of a torn dysfunctional unit...
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prayed for a sign, clear answer
a direction
seeking clarity to
maternal dilemma
protect my seed from
family exposure
Within hours
you sent her
the third generation
physical embodiment of
emotional confusion
despair and depression
another psychotic daughter
of a torn dysfunctional unit...
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Silver Lining
There is a silver lining
to this cloud
I have spotted it
although it is far, far
far beyond my reach
It's sight restores faith
refills my empty vessel
renews resolution to
forge ahead....
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to this cloud
I have spotted it
although it is far, far
far beyond my reach
It's sight restores faith
refills my empty vessel
renews resolution to
forge ahead....
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Saturday, October 21, 2006
Fell In Love
Fell in love with a man
Uhm, well, kinda sorta
not really in love, more like
infatuated stimulations and
intimate inspirations
mental musings
creating physical longing
requiring his direct reaction
calming, soothing and healing
I called it love, but
he knew what it was
understood my boundaries and limits
more than I
He never encroached past that
established parameter...
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Uhm, well, kinda sorta
not really in love, more like
infatuated stimulations and
intimate inspirations
mental musings
creating physical longing
requiring his direct reaction
calming, soothing and healing
I called it love, but
he knew what it was
understood my boundaries and limits
more than I
He never encroached past that
established parameter...
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Friday, October 20, 2006
You
I couldn't help but
want you
cling to the idea of you
You are the
breeze against my ear
the light touch on my temple
the caress on my lower back...
want you
cling to the idea of you
You are the
breeze against my ear
the light touch on my temple
the caress on my lower back...
Mission Impossible
I wanted to meet
plan it out and
hookup with you
for the obvious,
to do what we came to do
You are the master of the creep
guiding and leading
instructing on this
darker side, clandestine world
previously unknown to me
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plan it out and
hookup with you
for the obvious,
to do what we came to do
You are the master of the creep
guiding and leading
instructing on this
darker side, clandestine world
previously unknown to me
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Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Eternal Price
Name the price of engagement.
Cause right now,
I swear I'm paying with
mind , body, spirit and soul
You are stripping me
wearing me down and unraveling
my energy
staining my reality
digging out my core while
observing me cruelly
Leave. Please, please leave.
But it isn't enough,
the slow decimation of me
you must destroy my very essence
until I am
bowed down
castrated and broken
Then you'll still hang on
'til this soul has been ripped
from the bent frame,
sucked out and destroyed
torn and tormented
You wish to rob and defile me
energize you and dethrone me
the same thing you loved, now repulses
and you must desecrate me until I
am no longer anything but a reflection of you
my beauty gone, minimized and reduced
to appease your self hate
Cause right now,
I swear I'm paying with
mind , body, spirit and soul
You are stripping me
wearing me down and unraveling
my energy
staining my reality
digging out my core while
observing me cruelly
Leave. Please, please leave.
But it isn't enough,
the slow decimation of me
you must destroy my very essence
until I am
bowed down
castrated and broken
Then you'll still hang on
'til this soul has been ripped
from the bent frame,
sucked out and destroyed
torn and tormented
You wish to rob and defile me
energize you and dethrone me
the same thing you loved, now repulses
and you must desecrate me until I
am no longer anything but a reflection of you
my beauty gone, minimized and reduced
to appease your self hate
All Man
How easy is it
to possess that masculine thing?
Does it just flow to you, like that?
Unmistakable mandom swallowing you whole
possessing and radiating
individual pulse
shocking every feminine bloom
within your radius
Don't you wonder how you've
got it like that
There are many fine men,
handsome and beautiful
but, they don't exude it
like you, baby...
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to possess that masculine thing?
Does it just flow to you, like that?
Unmistakable mandom swallowing you whole
possessing and radiating
individual pulse
shocking every feminine bloom
within your radius
Don't you wonder how you've
got it like that
There are many fine men,
handsome and beautiful
but, they don't exude it
like you, baby...
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Tuesday, October 17, 2006
Soul Kiss
I'm sending you a soul kiss.
Only to you.
This unique symbol of devotion and love.
Identifying my soul mate,
spiritual partner, physical lover and mental stimulator.
Yes. A soul kiss.
My innermost vibration
radiating slowly in circular expansion
like a penny thrown in a still pond
creating slight ripples,
spreading and pulsing against you
filling every orifice until
locating your most secret self
When our souls touch
yours will recall making love to me
uttermost wants and secret whispers
admitted desires and deepest promises...
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Only to you.
This unique symbol of devotion and love.
Identifying my soul mate,
spiritual partner, physical lover and mental stimulator.
Yes. A soul kiss.
My innermost vibration
radiating slowly in circular expansion
like a penny thrown in a still pond
creating slight ripples,
spreading and pulsing against you
filling every orifice until
locating your most secret self
When our souls touch
yours will recall making love to me
uttermost wants and secret whispers
admitted desires and deepest promises...
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Monday, October 16, 2006
Rejected Happiness
Proud to say
I've rejected happiness
that illusive tempter seducing me with
flexed arms and masculine carved back
offering whimsical pleasure in
intermittent bursts, but continuity
always outside my grasp
No more will I
participate in this salsa
grinding against happiness' hips
absorbing his unique power
anticipating full release but
suffering unfulfilled withdrawal
Uh uh. I don't need happiness...
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I've rejected happiness
that illusive tempter seducing me with
flexed arms and masculine carved back
offering whimsical pleasure in
intermittent bursts, but continuity
always outside my grasp
No more will I
participate in this salsa
grinding against happiness' hips
absorbing his unique power
anticipating full release but
suffering unfulfilled withdrawal
Uh uh. I don't need happiness...
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