Always You

There is always you
always there
lurking in the corners of my mind
riding listless along the shadows of my thoughts

You are always with me
At first I ignored it or
remained oblivious
unaware how much I depended
relied on the smooth deep swell of your voice
calling my name
as only you still do

But lately I find myself jealous
when others fill your space
take your attention
nestle a place in your heart
and I have to remind myself
that
you are not mine and
you deserve the love
I can never give you but you
are worthy of so much more
all of me and what I believe I can be
because, at my weakest and strongest
you have always been
right here with me

Your Enhancement

Can you stay
for a little while
I'm not quite ready
to be alone
not yet

Normally, my alone time
is not lonely time
but, your space has enriched me
brightened me
added music to silence
light to dimness
color to drab
taste to bland

Now I am senstive to
new arousals and enrichment and
concerned about the
return to plain
sad at the thought of reentry
now it seems so
lonely
returning to dry and brittle after inhaling your
moist and luxurious

So please, please
stay with me
just a little while
maybe then I can release you
and the enhancement you possess